Gutted

My little brother served his mission in London and came back with some great British slang terms. Every time I think about leaving Pittsburgh the word "gutted" comes to mind, basically British slang for extremely upset or devastated. I think the word sounds just like its meaning and describes my feelings exactly. I am completely gutted. Torn up and empty inside. Don't get me wrong, I am super excited about moving to Utah! I am just gutted that I will be leaving my life here in Pittsburgh.

It was a rough couple of months when we first moved here. I remember crying on the phone to my mom on multiple occasions telling her how much I hated it here. Ha! Now anytime I think about leaving I start to cry. I have absolutely fallen in love with Pittsburgh! I love the city, I love all of the fun things to do- baseball games, museums, the zoo, TONS of parks/playgrounds to explore, walking trails, restaurants, state parks with beautiful hiking trails, splash parks, the library, etc, etc. Seriously, so much to do! While I don't particularly love the busy street that we live on or the tiny yard that we have; I have loved being able to walk to Washington Rd, Beverly, and all through the beautiful neighborhoods. I have especially loved Mt Lebanon! I love that I can go to the Mt Lebo playground and almost always find at least one person I know there. There is such a small town feel in Mt Lebanon even though we are in this big city.

Then there are the people. I already posted about my friends, but it is really so true. I love them and will miss them so much. I am gutted. I know Jackson will miss all of our friends too. For a two year old, he is pretty attached to a few of his friends. He has even asked if some of them can come with us:) We will miss our playdates, our wednesday morning playgroup, our thursday morning trips to storytime, and all of the stuff in between. I love having this structure in my week- a few set activities each week and a few days for whatever we feel like. This will be a hard change because I know it will take some time to get to that point in Ephraim. I hate change, even though I know it will be better in the long run.

I think this change is even harder on me right now because it is happening so fast. I expected to be staying here into July and now here we are moving in 2 weeks! I feel like I have so much to do to get ready for the move that I haven't even been able to spend time with anybody. And this makes me the most gutted:( Especially since the last few months have been busy with traveling and job hunting instead of enjoying Pittsburgh and spending time with friends.

I will miss you Pittsburgh and all of our Pittsburgh friends!